There Are Too Many Questions About My Self

There Are Too Many Questions About My SelfThere are many more questions than there are answers about my self. So many questions in fact that are not answers, because they are just intended to shock and baffle the person asking them. What is a five-year-old suppose to say to this question? 'Well I dunno, I haven't really done anything since I was five so if I haven't done something by now it must be something big like grow up or something.'And yet when it comes to life, 'well I dunno, I haven't really done anything since I was five.' Well, then what was I doing growing up, exactly? How long have I been running around pretending to be somebody I am not, acting like I know something, doing a million things that have nothing to do with how I live and all because I am myself?It's not only things that have to do with myself that are perplexing. I have also been perplexed by other people's thoughts and actions about me. What is a grown up supposed to say to an eighteen-year-old child, if th is child does not know anything about life?Why should they say anything at all? If I was to ask that same adult about my self, would they say anything? Not a chance.The adult who is related to me will not consider me as an adult; they will simply be someone who has grown up, and I will be someone who has grown up. They would say something like: 'well, you know, I don't really know anything about you so maybe this isn't the best time to talk about yourself,' and they would say it from behind a big, pretentious white beard that says 'I am not your real father but you are better than I thought.'The adult who is related to me will not consider me a grown up, but someone who has grown up. But if they were to talk about me they would say something like: 'well you know, I don't really know anything about you but I can tell you are from a great family because that will mean something when you are older,' and they would say it from behind a big, pretentious white beard that says 'I am not yo ur real father but you are better than I thought.' Is that how I should be described?Or even better: 'well, you know, I don't really know anything about you but I can tell you are from a great family because that will mean something when you are older,' and they would say it from behind a big, pretentious white beard that says 'I am not your real father but you are better than I thought.' Is that how I should be described? 'I guess I am a grown up, I think.Sometimes, when I am asked about my self I feel like crying, because there are a lot of questions that are not true. Questions like, 'Well, I don't really know anything about you because I have not lived much of your life and I have not worked for it as much as you have worked for yours and I am still young and I am not as grown up as you are so maybe this isn't the best time to talk about yourself.' These are only a few questions about myself. They are not answers, but they are ones that make you feel like something about my self is wrong, and therefore something about me is wrong.